I was a historically skinny person, but I gained quite a bit in law school. I KNOW this is stress eating. When I was studying for the LSAT I vividly remember eating handfuls of trail mix and being surprised that I wanted 2,3, 4 more handfuls. I'd never experienced that before in my life.
Unsurprisingly I hit my all time high studying for the bar (145-165 --> 215) and I just felt terrible. After the bar I started clerking in trial court (fairly low stress with free time to go for a walk, decompress etc). I lost some weight naturally over time, but my biggest loss was during Covid in preparation for my wedding. I used noom and restricted to 1000-1200 calories daily no exercise. It was so reliable that it was easy to push through the hunger and eventually the hunger stopped. I lost about 60 lbs.
After the wedding I got pregnant, lost the pregnancy at 3 mos (I ate whatever I wanted during pregnancy it wasn't related to my diet) and just stopped trying. I regained all the weight even though I had hoped to work on maintenance after the wedding. I was so sad I didn't give a shit about all the work I put in.
The thing that pulled me out of the depression was getting a job as a practicing attorney. I feel better about myself and I've been working with a nutritionist to incorporate healthy meals/exercise without tracking due to the ability to restrict. But now I'm back at the beginning of the cycle.
The time pressured nature of practicing law makes me feel like I need to snack. I can't stop and smell the roses because the work will stack up. It's almost like because I feel stuck at my desk the snacks are a way to move my process along or get entertainment or escape? And because I'm totally focused on something else I struggle to stop myself. I know counting calories would create a negative reinforcement that might help me manage it, but I want to make a lasting change.
How do you deal with
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