I was turning 20 almost a decade ago. I was at rock bottom, being at least 440 pounds, having heart attack scares, not fitting on a rollercoaster, in movie theatre seats, being winded by the most negligible activity, and surrounded by self-loathing.
Day 1: Portrait @440+ Profile @440+
One month to turning 30: Portrait @ 203 Profile @ 203
I don't have an exact number since my scale max measurable weight was 450; there was at least a month where the scale said "ERROR." Last Friday, I weighed in @ 203. Surreal is an understatement. But the imposter syndrome and the body dysmorphia are still here and do have hands.
I cannot stress enough the number of mistakes I have made. This journey has honestly dominated my mental health, for better & worse. I wasn't prepared for the non-body/scale changes. The confidence you get, the security in yourself, but how you trust others and their interest in you is significantly altered. In every relationship, I wonder if they'd want to be with me at my heaviest.
I'm also feeling lost at this point in my training. I don't want to stop, but I'm not sure if there's a weight I need to stop at or if I should give a bulk an honest go. I don't know how to account for or measure my loose skin.
I want to stress to this subreddit that my weight loss and muscle gain were almost ten years of hard work. The most significant factor in your success is CONSISTENCY; there's a lot of wrong information out there, and to do this right is to be careful and consistent.
Our goal in battling obesity is living a long, active, healthy life, not aesthetics.
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