This is difficult for me to say but I don't know what else to do. I can't manage this on my own and I really, really need help. I log all my meals for the day, then binge on peanut butter (500-900cal) and it skyrockets my caloric intake for the day from deficit to over maintenance in a millisecond. I can't stop and don't know how to stop. I've been struggling for months. I'm so tired. I've been 'allowing' myself small portions of peanut butter at breakfast to try control the binge by allowing myself a small bit of what I crave but nothing works. I'm so exhausted mentally and physically. It causes me so much emotional anguish and pain by keeping myself back from my goals by this stupid decision of mine. But I can't stop. Before the "don't buy peanut butter" comments roll in, it's not my peanut butter. But I still can't stop. I truly, truly don't know what to do. I've tried every possible action to try wean myself away from this calorie-destructive binge that pulls me from deficit to maintenance or over but every time I fail. Every. Time. I'm so tired. It's just this one stupid fucking substance I can't control myself around. I really need help and don't know what to do.
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