This will be long but it has a point so thank you to anyone who reads this. I want to update everyone every week or two to keep me honest. I also want to be active in r/loseit instead of just lurking all the time. Eventually I will post progress pictures.
I am a 29 year old male and I am 6 feet tall. I started losing weight three years ago after a bad relationship. Initially, I did this a form of revenge but as time went on, I kept going because I wanted to be happy and because I wanted to have a chance to date my best friend (the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life). I started at 285 pounds and last July, my weight fell below 235 pounds for the first time since I was 20. That’s fifty pounds lost! I completely took it for granted. During that time, I started dating the girl I just talked about (Apparently she liked me even with all the extra weight. J ) and my major depression cleared up in a big way. I was lifting weights, 3-5 days a week, diet was clean, and I was hitting all my macros. Self-confidence was great and I actually loved myself for the first time in for as long as I can remember.
Last Tuesday, I got on the scale and weighed 270.8 pounds. This was not a surprise to me at all. Over the last year, I slowly put 35 pounds back on. Senior year of university had me working a job on campus, working at my internship, and taking classes full time all while searching for full-time work so I could be employed when I graduated. These are all just excuses and I quit doing all of the things that made me successful and ate tons of fast food.
Which gets me to my point. I need to reset things and I have. I am extremely disappointed in myself. My depression has come back in a huge way. My feelings of self-loathing, pity and despair are taking a toll on me and my relationship. I have always wanted a lean athletic body and if I’m ever going to achieve this, now is the time. I will be thirty in March and I have never seen my abs. One of my biggest motivations is that I am now engaged and we will be getting married in 10 months. She is five feet tall and weighs less than a hundred pounds. I don’t want to be looked as the big fatty that tricked her into marrying me. In fact, I am always paranoid that people will judge me in comparison to her. I actually don’t think I’m ugly and I have been told that I am basically a big teddy bear. Not a bad place to be but I am not content with that and want to feel sexually attractive and wanted for my body instead of just being “dad bod” cute. When my fiancé and I get married next summer and start having sex, I want her to be floored and give me that look that no girl has ever given me. More than anything though, I’m just tired of thinking about being fat all the time. I’m tired of worrying about dying early. I’m tired of always being uncomfortable in my own skin. I’m tired of always worrying about people judging me when I eat. I am tired of feeling self conscious and bad about myself all the time.
I am done being like this and I refuse to fail this time. I am probably more focused than I have ever been in my life. My diet has been on point for the last nine days. I wanted this to be sustainable for the rest of my life but also rapid so it can be over quickly. A tightrope to walk but definitely possible. The rules are as follows:
- Basically only meat, eggs, lots of colorful vegetables, healthy oils, and simple carbs. No added sugar at all unless it’s a cheat meal, vacation, party, wedding, etc. (NO FAST FOOD)
- Drink lots of water before every meal and bedtime. Black coffee, diet coke, tea without sugar, and the occasional glass of whole milk are permitted. I’m also allowed to go have a beer or two one night a week. This is normal for me anyways so it shouldn’t be hard to keep doing this.
- Sleep at least 7-8 hours a night. (I haven’t done a good job at this tbh.)
- Basically, limit calories to 1500 calories a day and try to get a 150g of protein a day. I don’t want to get skinny fat so I will adjust this number up if I need to. After I reach my goal weight, I plan on eating the same things but lift my calorie limit and macros to whatever is needed for maintenance.
- Lift weights and follow a good program, run a few miles three times a week for heart health, and stretch.
After nine days, I have had some good results. Here is what I have achieved so far.
- My weight is now at 264.9 (Down 5.9 pounds down from 270.8 at last weigh in.)
- BMI is now 35.9 (Down from 36.7 at last weigh in.)
- Waist to Hip Ratio is currently at 1.032 (Down from 1.042 at last weigh in.)
- Waist is now 49 Inches (Down from 50 inches at last weigh in.)
- Hips are now 47.5 inches (Down from 48 at last weigh in.)
- Chest is now 48.25 inches (Down from 48.5 at last weigh in.)
TLDR: Lost a lot of weight. Gained a lot back. Started over 8 days ago and want to keep myself accountable so I will be posting here regularly. 29M |6’00”|SW: 285|CW: 264.9|GW: 180
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