So I finally have a healthy BMI after years of being overweight (I'm 5'3" and weight 133 rn). Anyway that is on the high end for what's healthy so I wanted to get down to 118 and see if I feel good at that weight. My mom really doesn't like this though she keeps telling me I'm already fine the way I am and I'll be anorexic if I lose more. That's definitely not true but it's what she believes. It's just every time I see her we argue about this. Even started calling me out in front of my brother and dad. She brings junk food, that I used to love, to me as well as cooking for me when I clearly stated I ate all my calories. Anyway the reason I'm making this post was because last night she invited me out to eat like she does every Thursday and I accepted since I had enough calories left. The thing was she started digging into my insecurities there, in front of everyone else. I have an unhealthy relationship with my food and body, resulting in a pretty terrible social life. I know that and I'm trying to fix it but I feel like that doesn't give her an excuse to do that. She knows I'm sensitive about that stuff so reminding me that I wasn't that great looking and telling me to go see a therapist was kinda shitty of her. I managed to stay calm for most of it but when she brought up the fact I have an almost non-existent social life while I'm "in the prime of my life" I started crying. I was mortified. I know it's my fault for letting myself cry but it's hard to not be angry at her. I really don't want to talk to her for a while. I'm not really sure what to do now. This has been going on for months and I really can't stand it.
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