I've basically been on my weight loss journey most of my life.
Looking back to when I first thought I was fat is heartbreaking, because I was 9 years old. I always had such thin friends, and I hit puberty pretty early, so my curves made me insecure. I have felt uncomfortable in my body for as long as I can remember.
I have been working out from home for the last 15ish years. I have this pattern... I'll get very into my new health routine, I'll lose weight/build muscle. Then something will happen - I'll complete a workout program, or go on vacation, or get sick/injured... Doesn't matter what it is that happens, the result is always the same. I'll just stop everything.
I truly can't think of a single reason why I continue to self sabotage. (I've heard of people subconsciously sabotaging because they were once SA'd and don't want to attract attention in case this occurs again, or they subconsciously gain weight to spite a parent who cares too much about appearances... Etc.) I have never had anything like this happen, so I'm even more frustrated because I don't know what the mental block is, but I know one must exist, because WHY?
I'm trying to get back on the horse this week, but I'm just so frustrated and feeling defeated. This is such an unhealthy way to live, but I don't know how to overcome this weird mental obstacle.
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