Ugh. Where do I start? When will it end? According to so many posts here, maybe it never will.
I’m a 5’4” female that set a goal 3 years ago to hit a target weight of 125lbs. As long as I can remember I’ve had a horrible relationship with food; stress eating seems to have been my biggest issue. When I ultimately hit 181lbs and was diagnosed pre-diabetic, I knew I had to make a change
I started hiking 5 days a week and set a food goal of 1400 calories per day. Those first few days were absolute hell. I remember attempting to walk a 6 mile hike and ended up completely out of breathe at mile 4. I thought I was going to have to be airlifted out. Funny thing is, 2 years later I ran those same 6 miles without stopping.
Everything was working like clockwork until I hit the 130’s. Then I lost focus. It started with a few drinks after work here and there which were ultimately followed by large restaurant portions of food I had no business eating. I told myself I would work it off in the morning. I said I looked fine at 136. Then the weight started piling on and I felt too heavy to exercise. Like I literally felt heavy and it hurt to workout. Then the pandemic hit and I lost my job and sulked at home in isolation, seemingly self medicating with food and drink. I gained 15 pounds in a month.
22 days ago I started exercising again, started counting calories like I used to, and lost 7 lbs. While isolating at home I got creative with some fun workouts in a makeshift gym I set up in my garage, compete with disco balls and colorful lights to keep it fun and entertaining. The trails finally reopened in my county a few days ago and I’m back hiking 9 miles a day (with a damn mask on) and loving it (not the mask part, but it’s what I have to do as an asthmatic). I’m holding strong at 149lbs, but, I’m not going to lie, I’m starting to get restless. These extra 13 pounds are really pissing me off and it’s going to take really hard work to get back to where I was. And even more hard work to get to my ultimate goal weight. So much wasted time and energy.
I’m thankful this community exists and I’m humbly turning to it for any and all comments of support while I try and stay focused, yet again.
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