Hey there- it's my first time posting on this page! Was just hoping maybe to get a little bit of support and advice!
I've been trying to lose weight since December, but my weight only really began to shift during quarantine. So far I've lost 17lbs and this is the closest I've been to the 200lb mark in YEARS (!!!) which i am so happy about (getting below that 100kg milestone was also exciting for me).
Only thing is, (I THINK????) a big reason i've lost a lot of the weight i think could be due to my weird lockdown induced sleeping habits? I tend to sleep from 7am-6pm meaning i only am awake for one meal a day, and then i'll have maybe a piece of toast or two at around about 4am. That being said the days ive been up at normal hours ive been eating significantly less naturally and get fuller a lot easier.
I'm really glad doing this hasnt led me to binge in my waking hours but it is making me worry that for some reason I'm not actually losing the weight ? and that the scales are lying to me or that i was never 230lbs in the first place or that im actually gaining weight? It's weird. I've had issues with food stuff in the past (binge eating/bulimia i feel stupid talking about eating disorder stuff when i'm as heavy as i am but ah well) and maybe this is just my ED brain being weird now that im actually losing weight????
Another thing that can be a bit demotivating is knowing how far i have to go... I'm really excited to get to the 200lb mark, but my end goal would be 140lbs which at my height would be a healthy BMI. It just seems so impossible. I know it isnt but it just gets me so so upset sometimes when i think about what i've done to my body that all i wanna do is crawl into bed eat a MASSIVE cake and never leave my room again- i know i know- stupid !!!! But thats how i feel.
I know i should be proud of the weight i've lost and use it as motivation to keep me going, but i cant feel proud and i cant truly believe i've actually lost the weight :(
Any advice / encouragement would be so so appreciated- sorry this post was so long and ended on gloomy note ! xxxx
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