Hey guys! I used to be really active on here, then stopped.
I used to be super active because I was losing weight consistently, having been keeping track of my calories, and having that motivation because I knew it worked. I reached my goal weight. I finally liked looking at myself in the mirror.
But then I fell into some mental health issues that ultimately ended with a depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and bipolar diagnosis.
For several months (before the diagnoses), I just couldn't get back to logging. And I was so stressed at work that I stress-ate like mad.
Within months, I had gained back 10 pounds.
I got out of the funk briefly after seeing a doctor because "I finally know what's going on!" I started tracking again, and it felt great to see myself moving toward my goal weight again.
Well, work got even more stressful, and I lost the motivation to track my calories. Again. And stress-ate. Again. I had given up. Again.
Since then, I've gained enough weight to be much heavier than my old starting weight.
But I'm sick and tired of hiding myself whenever my partner was around me while I was undressed. I'm sick and tired of avoiding the mirror after a shower. I'm sick and tired of wearing baggy clothes so that I'd forget what "a failure" I was. I'm sick and tired of avoiding scales altogether.
So I decided to tracking again.
It was hard at first, and it took many tries. I went through so many "first days" where I'd give up tracking a few days later, and think "why even bother?"
Well, I've now been tracking for a few weeks, every single day. And I've lost weight. Guys, I've actually stuck with it and lost weight. Now I've lost about 6 pounds since I began. Seeing that progress actually start again is making me think "I want to keep feeling good like this!"
It was only after I basically forced myself to keep it up for a week or two that I've got my motivation back. But I've got my head back in the game now, and I'm ready to keep moving toward my goal weight. I know I've got this!
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