This will by a story about just something in my mind snapping and realizing it's time. About a year ago I am ashamed to admit that I was over 100 pounds larger then I was before, this is so far my journey from 527lb, to 402lb as of today. This will include my failures, my successes, the moments I got it, and the moments I gave up.
Downfall
So, where to start, I guess I should start at the beginning as most stories do. Hi, I'm Matthew for about a good 10 years now I have been eating myself to near death. From when I was 13-22 I didn't care about my body or myself, I could blame it on a lot of things. I was abused, I was depressed, I was suicidal, I was heartbroken. This caused me to go on waves of none committal weightloss stretched where I would want immediate loss, and when I didnt see it within a week or two I would give up and fall into a pit of binge eating pizza and fast food. My lack of motivation as well as everyone I thought cared about me just giving up on me sent my mind reeling into a pit of despair and self loathing whenever I looked in the mirror.But, we all know those aren't good enough reasons. The real reason was, I just was lazy, I didn't care how I looked or smelt or anything for a while. I say a while but to be more accurate it was for a good 8 years, I had girlfriends, really good ones, pretty bad ones. So that's a little background on before something just changed in my mind..
The Change
I was going to have surgery for my toes under the immense pressure of my weight finally developed ingrown toenails, before the surgery happened I got to meet with my surgeon. I'll call him GS (Good Surgeon), GS took one look at me, sat me down and said 4 words, "You're going to die." Normally this would of offended me, and that's when I would usually just switch doctors. GS continued, "You need to make a lifestyle change quick, or you will die of heart failure. I'm sure you've heard all this a million times before but you need to change." And that was when the snap happened.
After my surgery was done and my feet had recovered, I immediately dived into full diet mode. I began looking at smoothies machines, weightloss tips, stories, and gym memberships. I got a gym, I started working out on the elliptical, then moved to the treadmill, then to weights. Breathing became easier and I was not as out of breath as I was when working out. I reccomend this to anyone trying to lose weight. I think the first notable difference I observed was being able to throw away my seat belt extender (yes I needed one of those!) Because I finally could get the belt around my belly. Within months all sorts of changes began happening. I stopped feeling so hungry, my resting blood pressure went from 111bpm to 89bpm and I awoke this year to the fun of being able to hike again. Something I hadn't done in years was now achievable.
I think, if I didn't have that talk with my surgeon, I don't know where I would be today. Possibly in a grave, but I'm happy I'm still here. My goal is 250lb by the end of this year. To do so I've quit a job which involved a lot of sitting and took a clerk job with has more physical activity. I've cut my calories to below 2000 before exercise and just within this month I've gone from 422lb to 402lb. I want to show every fat guy or girl that, no matter your size it's never too late for getting skinny. Because I felt that way, that I was too fat and I could never exercise and my body was disgusting. So here are some additional tips! What really helped me was apps that managed your calories and tracked your steps as well as exercise. I cannot express the beauty of having a 24hr gym especially if you are shy about your body, I typically went at 12am when virtually no one was there and it allowed me to just hammer in the hours without feeling as disgusting.
Another thing that motivated me was picking something I wanted to do that I couldn't at the moment. So for me, this year I want to ride carnival rides and for that to happen I need to get below 300lb before fall hits. Set your goals in stages and not just one big goal as it can look imposing, it's like saying you'll climb a mountain. Once you look at that mountain it looks impossible, but if you take it one step at a time and set your goal points it will be over before you know it. My weightloss adventure is still continuing and I hope I reach my goal. And sorry if my story is bad I'm not really good at writing at all, let alone understanding how to express myself. Thank you all for reading from one Fat person to all the others, there needs to be a change, and it's time to get in shape. All you need to keep in mind is that do what your body is comfortable with, if you feel like your pushing too hard you shouldn't stop, just slow down until you can keep up. I hope this motivates someone to get their butt in gear.
Have a great day yall, I have more trails to climb!
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