Two years ago, I weighed around 150. (For reference, I'm 5'6" 20F). I gained until I was 165, then dropped to 130ish. Now I'm around 145.
I find it really depressing to notice how much better I'm treated at the lower weight. I carry my weight in such a way that my face looks totally different at 130 from how it looks at 150, and I look much more attractive. This is based on my own observation but also just how people treat me. When I'm skinnier, people smile at me and strike up conversations much more often. I get complimented and just generally treated as valuable wherever I go, for lack of a better word. When I'm bigger, I don't get noticed at all.
I know someone will say it's just that I'm more confident when I'm smaller. That is true, but doesn't tell the whole story. I think it's definitely objectively true that our society discriminates based on weight and attraction.
I noticed this when I lost the weight the first time. It bothered me a bit, but I couldn't really complain when I was soaking up the attention. Now I notice it again (in reverse) as I gain weight, and it fucking sucks. I feel resentful. It sucks that I have to lose weight to be treated like I'm an appealing person.
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