So I'm pretty heavy, but it's never bothered me because I shaped up pretty well after I turned 18. I grew a ton after so I know I don't look very heavy- definitely not skinny though.
As I grew I stopped carrying about my weight because it started skyrocketing.
I'm 6'3 (190cm) and about 253 lbs (114 kg).
I workout fairly regularly, mostly lifting and general calisthenics. But not enough to lose fat (something I have much more than I'd like to), I also didn't really try to change my eating habits.
The problem: looking at myself in the mirror didn't bother me because I looked normal- like a giant kid, and as a result, I think I stopped trying.
But recently I went up to an really cool Zipline place with my younger sister. And of course they have a weight limit so when we got there, they weighed us and the limit is 250. I didn't know that I was more than 245.
When they told us that I couldn't go, my sister was heartbroken. She refused to go without me, but she was also so excited to go.
I felt like a monster. Like there was no reason for me to ever weigh this much and because of it, I stopped something that we could've really enjoyed.
Later that night when we all went out to dinner I was watching more fit people eat. I noticed that they don't eat more than can. They eat slow and aren't in a rush to get the food in their mouth.
That's when I realized I have an unhealthy relationship with food. And with exercise. In that moment I felt so pathetic.
My final realization was that I refuse to ever feel this way again. I refuse to eat like a greedy man would. And I refuse to exercise just for the sake of it.
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