TW: Miscarriage
I started out really good today. I rode my exercise bike for an HOUR this morning, my longest stretch yet. I did really well with small, healthy snacks to leave me room for a big dinner to keep me from snacking endlessly until bed. I even weighed out my cashews, and had just one serving! I was feeling great, doing the best I've been doing mentally in a while. I was even up and moving around and doing housework, which is usually put to the back burner if I get a good workout.
Then I got blindsided. It's been about 6 weeks since I had a miscarriage, and I hadn't had a period yet. I had to have a D&C and so didn't have a definitive timeline as to when it would happen. I went from "ow, was that a cramp or did I push it too hard this morning?" to wiping blood in less than 10 minutes. I was not prepared for that.
So, I ordered way too much taco bell (grub hub is the bane of my existence at the moment), poured a giant glass of soda, which I haven't had in 4 weeks, and vegged out on the couch to Marvel movies. I let myself be sad and miserable for 3 hours.
Then I got myself up, logged my ridiculous amount of taco bell, and realized it put me at maintenance. Not that bad, all things considered. Not as bad as I thought it would be. I think I'm ready to do this again tomorrow.
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