While writing this I can’t decide if I should post or not, I know I’m not the first to come to this subreddit about wanting to lose weight. I’m definitely not the first person to lose weight and gain it back. Problem is my depression and anxiety cripple me, I struggle to open up to those around me that I trust. I am desperate to open up to someone because the last few weeks, months and probably years have been tough.
Here’s a bit of information and backstory about myself. I am a F/25/5’3” and currently weight roughly 194lbs, I have lost weight and gained it back. In 2013 after I had my first child I gained a considerable amount of weight. I went from 155 to 205. Over the course of a year or so I managed to lose 40lbs. Only to slowly gain it back thanks to emotional eating and a second pregnancy.
The past 12 months have been especially tough on me mentally, I’ve been running my own business and wasn’t fully aware of how much the stress has affected me. It’s been within the last 6 months I’ve specifically gained weight. My clothes are all tight, my asthma is terrible, I struggle to be active and I can’t look at myself in the mirror. My husband and I are hardly intimate thanks to my low self esteem and my lack of sex drive. I am ashamed of myself.
Despite knowing how to improve my health I feel stuck, I can’t seem to pull myself up off the couch. I know the only way to change something is to just do it but it is so damn hard. I hate feeling like this. I want to change and I need to right now, not tomorrow or next week.
I need some motivation to help me getting going, whatever help you can offer me please post it. I know motivation fades and I am going to need a routine to keep me accountable. To those that read my post thank you, getting this off my chest has actually helped a lot. It’s been bottled up for so long. I think I just want to feel some support and encouragement, having followed this subreddit for so long I know just how supportive everyone here can be.
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