I've been avoiding it - I won't lie. I know I've gained, but last night I finally got up the courage to step back on and see the damage. I've gained 20 pounds. I actually laughed because I swore I'd never hit 240 again, and I hit 239.9! What a save!
I realized that two majors things happened in September to make me stop tracking:
First, grad school, tossed off my schedule - oh well, I'll learn to work through it again.
Second and bigger: I told my mom about the LoseIt! App, and she now does that and kickboxing six days a week - she's lost like 60 pounds. I'm proud of her, and I wish I could do that too, but we live different lives in different bodies. I just felt like a failure in comparison and guilty that I feel that way (and that I let myself go). It still kinds hurts and even if I've identified it I'm still struggling. Even going into the App makes me feel crappy now. What can I do to change? To be okay with myself and find a way to progress again?
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