Since /r/loseit was extremely helpful in the whole process and the main reason it worked so well, I think it's only right to post my progress here. Before pictures are of course not great, since I fled every camera at my HW, like many of us do.
https://i.imgur.com/ldPM9WK.jpg (the SW picture is not even 126 kg, it's probably 115 kg, I couldn't wear this suit at 126 kg any more)
It started in September 2017, when a lot of things getting worse slowly (things like back, liver, stomach, knees hurting, short breath, feeling very unhappy with my body, avoiding photographs, avoiding seeing myself in the mirror, feeling weak and without stamina) fell together with a company health day. BP 143/104, BMI 38.9, weight: 126.1 kg, BF: 33.9 (surely a lot higher in reality). The worst thing, and the thing that left the most impression on my, was the two girls that were flustered when they told me the numbers - they were ashamed for me basically.
This was the moment I decided to change things. I always said "some day I have to lose weight". Some day was always sometimes in the far future. With 37 I realised lying awake in the night, at 3-4 am, when you stop deluding yourself, that the "sometime in the future" will be very short for me if I don't change things very quickly. That I likely won't survive my 50th birthday, and if I do it will be with severe health issues.
So I did it right there and then. First thing was "gain no weight until Christmas". I did it the way I already lost weight once: Eat less without much plan, just less sweets, don't eat after 5 pm. Not much structure behind it, but I managed to not only keep at 126 kg, but to get down to 120 kg.
I decided to step things up a bit and start focusing on losing weight, but still full of fatlogic and not much knowledge, just knowing not to lose too fast, since you might get into Starvation Mode(tm). So I got down to 117 kg until May. With my "new" body and a lot of new self-confidence I started dating for the first time in decades. I met a very great woman, who had herself lost 20 kg and while we unfortunately didn't hit it off enough for a relationship back then, we did stay in regular contact and she was a huge motivator for me "she could do this, so can I".
This was when /r/loseit, /r/progresspics and /r/fatlogic and "Conquering Fatlogic" entered the picture. I decided to put the whole thing on more scientific grounds and plan instead of doing it haphazardly. So I read everything I could, success stories, problem stories, rants, raves, scientific studies and learned a shitload. Calculated my TDEE, BMR, downloaded Fatscecret, started logging, decided on a 1000 kcal deficit (1600 kcal/day of input) and generally went all-in on CICO. Left behind "starvation mode" and "no eating after 5 pm" and "fat makes fat" and "carbs are bad" and so on. Started out with eating bad food, but less and then automatically migrated more and more to better food. Vegetables, fruits, lean meats, less sugar, less fat. And things suddenly started to move fast. Really fast. 1 kg a week was the minimum. May 2018 I weighted 115 kg. By August it was 107 kg. November 95 kg. Start of 2019 88 kg. Today 80 kg.
Suddenly I was no longer Obese III but Obese II, Obese I, only Overweight and now Normal weight! Clothes had to be exchanged every second month, my body felt better and better every day, things you don't even notice any more when you are overweight suddenly stopped hurting, stopped feeling heavy, stopped weighing me down. I had more energy despite eating far less than my body needs, I started to move more and unlike before liked moving. I started to get more out-going, more positive, less introverted, had a better and more positive outlook and I think that reflected in how I got treated - not because I was no longer as fat, but because I was a more agreeable and positive person. No longer resigned of having a short, painful existence on this world, suicide by food, but having a future, a bright outlook on life.
NSFW https://i.imgur.com/WglZria.jpg (before is about 117 kg in 2015)
NSFW https://i.imgur.com/FycrVvS.jpg (before also 117 kg 2015)
I'm not finished of course. Probably never will. Still some kg of fat to go (Tentatively the goal is currently 8 kg less) and some kg of muscles to build/rebuild as the underwear pictures show. Then onwards to keeping it off for the next 50-60 years. Even if it means logging every day and weighing every day that's a very small price to actually having a chance on 50-60 years more. I think this time around I have learned and found a way to keep it sustainable through the ups and downs of life, unlike the first major attempt 10 years ago (which still ended 6 kg less than it started, so I count it as overall somewhat successful).
So, if you are at your Day 1, remember, we all stood there once. It's a daunting task, a long, hard road. There are wonderful days, there are really shitty days. It takes time, commitment, routine or discipline, habit and changing your lifestyle. But the result is so, so worth it. Every single second of your day, sleeping or awake feels so much better if you don't carry a damn dishwasher on your back.
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