during the last couple of days, i couldn't stop thinking about greasy, unhealthy but so delicious food. but i somehow resisted. but today i was sitting in university and i really couldn't focus on anything else but my desire for pizza and other unhealthy foods.
so i went home, ordered a 26cm salami pizza, a chicken burger and a chicken wrap. I then ate the whole pizza and burger and 2/3 of the chicken wrap. as usually after bingeing, i felt disappointed and shameful, and was so mad at myself for giving in.
but then i did something i usually don't do after bingeing.
i told myself i would only eat what i had for my bingemeal. whenever i usually start bingeing, i just won't stop and keep telling myself "you've ruined everything anyway, why not just continue." But this time, i really did eat nothing else today except for this shit. that was my first victory today.
my second victory was, that i actually got my ass up and did my home workout that i promised myself i would do at least 5 times a week. again, i usually think that working out won't do anything when i have eaten that much unhealthy food beforehand, but i know that when i will start to think like that again, i will quit working out again and be my old miserable self again.
but i'm not going down that road again. even though i have let myself down today, i have now learned to pick myself up the same day and still try to do my very best, and i am really happy about that <3
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