Hey, people. I'm mostly a lurker on reddit but have decided to create a new account so I can avail myself of your seeming unfailing wealth of positive support and encouragement. I hate asking for help. But I'm pretty sure I need it.
Last year was a big year for me on several fronts. I quit smoking pot (near-daily smoker for 14 years), quit nicotine (smoker on and off since I was 13, had been vaping daily for almost two years), and quit drinking (fairly heavy daily drinker for the past decade). I also began intense therapy for my crippling depression and anxiety (was diagnosed with clinical depression as a child) and have had a few really mind-blowing positive breakthroughs in the past six months that have helped me to a vastly better place mentally and emotionally. I've also been happily married for 10 years and have two utterly phenomenal kids (six-year-old twins). So in many, many ways, my life is really, really good right now.
However, I'm obese (5'9", 275 pounds), and although I assumed I would lose weight when I stopped drinking and smoking pot (I would smoke and binge-eat every night until it hurt), I've actually put on another 25 or so pounds since last summer and am basically now at the same weight I was full-term with my twins (and I gained 80 pounds with my pregnancy, losing it all by the time they were nine months and then slowly gaining it back since then). I think hormones are maybe coming into play, as there are several signs I'm already well into perimenopause on the early side (I'm 38), but I'm fucking mortified. And more than that, I hurt. Everything hurts. All the time. And dude, I can barely even reach around to fucking wipe myself at this point. UGH.
There have only been a couple of years in my adult life when I was not at least somewhat overweight, and that was during/after the end of a nine-year relationship before meeting my husband. I have pretty much always struggled with my weight. But I'm finally ready to make fundamental changes to my relationship with food and make daily exercise a sustained part of my normal routine. I want to do this for myself, but I also want to do this for my children, to set a better example for living a healthy life and to have more energy and confidence in order to be active with them because they (and I) deserve that.
So today is my day one. My weight is now affecting my quality of life and I just can't anymore. I don't have a detailed plan because I don't really do well with those, so my focus to start will simply be moving more and eating less, especially less sugar (sugar became a huge craving for me when I stopped smoking pot).
Thanks for being here and reading. Again, I'm not really one to seek out support like this, but this seems like a truly amazing community and I'm really thankful to have found you.
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