Today is my day 1 AGAIN. This time I'm going past all of my instincts that are telling me "it's not a monday....it's not the first of the month....you already messed up one day of the week just eat what you want the rest and start over on monday." That mentality is what got me to this weight in the first place. That and what I suspect was heavy body image issues during my early years.
I was kind of a chunky child in elementary school, but nothing that caused concern. I lost all that weight as I went through puberty and it evened out with my height. I still thought I was massive though. I can remember as far back as fifth grade and,my number one new years resolution was to lose weight. And meet a boy with blonde hair and blue eyes who would love me forever. Disney movies.
So here I am at 22, still no prince charming and 214 pounds. My mental health has improved, I'm a nurse now and already back in nursing school to get my rn, but no matter my accomplishments I still discount it because of my weight.
So I have decided that it really is finally time, even though it's a Tuesday and I didn't wake up at 5 am this morning to go run. I have a therapy appointment on Thursday to help me get past some depression and anxiety issues and HOPEFULLY hopefully I can get my head out of my butt and really get healthy and lose some weight for me this time.
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