Dear body,
I need to tell you this. I've been waiting for the right moment, or rather I've failed to sieze the moment and just get this off my chest sooner, so hear my out now.
I've been more worried about putting the wrong fuel into my car than giving you the right fuel to function. I do fuel you up even more often than my car, but more fuel, especially the wrong kind, won't make you go faster. In fact, it's been slowing you down, and I've been beating you up instead of beating up the actual culprit. Me. I've committed terrible crimes against you, I've abused you, I pinched you, I insulted you, and I always took you for granted. I fed you things I wouldn't even give to my dog. I made you addicted to poison.
And yet while abusing you for years, all I could do is criticize YOU. Tell you how ugly you are, how worthless you are, how much I hate you, when actually I am the ugly one here. And I'm not talking about my looks. I'm talking about my words and my actions, which are an extension of my personality, right?
Today I heard that a family friend is dying from cancer. And there I was, thinking about whether I should eat some gingerbread or a piece of chocolate. How fucked up is that? If I keep treating you like this, maybe someday ,I'll be the one dying from cancer. And not because I smoked too much. That's weird too, isn't it? I don't smoke because it's unhealthy, but I feed my body with trash.
But anyway, 2018 is almost over, and I think it's time to bury the hatchet. I want to let you know that I appreciate you for still keeping my alive despite the abuse you've suffered. I won't let you suffer any longer.
I'm changing my lifestyle. Not just in order to fit into the brand new size 4 jeans I bought on sale yesterday, but because YOU MATTER. You deserve the best, and when you feel good, you'll make me look good.
I owe you my sincere apologies for treating you so badly.
Please forgive me.
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