Well.. That's pretty much it. I'm Fat. Again. On top of that, I feel like I'm in the worst shape of my life. Yesterday, while trying to do some pretty low effort (though tedious) home improvement tasks, I Just felt like such shit.
This really bums me out.
I used to be around 350lbs then I lost 175lbs on weight watchers. I led weight watchers meetings for a couple years.. I used to run all the time.. I was never muscular but I had extremely good cardiovascular health.. but most importantly I felt good.
I swore I'd never be back here again.. and yet here I am. Over the past 3 years the weight has came back.. slowly at first, then over the past 6 months it seems like I'm just packing it on. I don't know how much I weigh now.. I avoid getting on the scale like it's the plague. But I'd say I'm a bit over 300 now.
Given my past, I know what to do.. I know how to do it.. but for some reason.. I just can't.. I think if I'm being honest.. There's some part of me that has just quit caring. There's some sliver of me that wants to get back to where I was but for whatever reason I can't seem to find my motivation.
Not sure what I'm expecting here.. but I just wanted to put that out there.. maybe see if anyone has any suggestions on finding my motivation once again and figuring out how to get my shit together.
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