Hi, newbie here.
My entire life i've been cliniclly depressed due to my weight gain. It started when I was a young child, I only lived with my father as my parents were divorced and my mother was in prision for drug abuse. He is the typical "Don't be a pansy and man the fuck up" type of father and along with the subtle emotional abuse he failed to ever teach me good eating habits.
He stocked the fridge full of 700 calorie beef chimicagas that were a foot in length, along with corn dogs, taquitos, and other garbage. A typical meal was 1000-1500 calories and sometimes I had upwards of 4 or 5 meals a day. I was over 250lbs by age 8 and during that time my father noticed how big i was getting and forced me to join the football team for my elementary school instead of, you know, NOT BUYING GARBAGE FOR YOUR CHILD, but I digress.
I fucking hated football, the coaches were assholes and didn't care if i could barely jog a quarter of the field let alone do several laps with the rest of the kids. My weight slowed but still rose, I became discoraged and thought no matter how hard I hit, how fast I ran, or how much I sweat, nothing would get the pounds off. When I told my father enough was enough and quit the football team, thats when shit hit the fan.
My weight skyrocketed, I gained over 100 pounds during the next several years and fell into a deep depression. I fucking hated how I looked, nobody wanted to be friends with me and girls would always feign interest in me (this was before I discovered I was gay). I started seeing therapists and health counselors and they diagnosed me with depression. I've been on these meds for years now and my weight leveled off at 395 before I started meal replacements in preperation for gastric sleeve surgery.
I had some success, the weight melted off and I got down to 360 before I started gaining back and coming up to my current weight of 378lbs.
While these meal replacements (google New Direction Weight Management System) are effective, albiet a little gross, my depression still prevents motivation to eat these damn things. My question to you all is this, how do you deal with the depression that comes with being morbidly obese?
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