I’ve been lurking on this sub for a while and a following all of your journeys have helped me get and stay on track.
My stats: 5’3”/22/female, highest weight: 175 (August 2017), starting weight: 160 (January 2017), current weight: 133
I’ve always been overweight growing up. I even remember reading my diary from second grade and seeing my New Years resolution: “1. Do yoga. 2. Lose weight”. I was 6 years old.
Fast forward to summer of 2017 - I had an entire summer of doing nothing after graduating college and before starting my new job. In April 2017, I was 148, and by the time my job started, I was 175.
This was the heaviest that I’d been in my life. I didn’t know how it had gotten to that point, as I thought because I worked out, I was destined to just be overweight no matter what. In retrospect, I was eating so much junk food out of boredom, and eating out constantly, completely negating any progress I had made before. I was “counting calories” but was doing so highly inaccurately and not counting junk food because I would feel worse about it.
One of the benefits at my job is that I can get Weight Watchers for 50% off, so in January, I decided to go for it. The first few months, I went to the meetings, and it worked incredibly. The notion that if I don’t track something or I underestimate it to make myself feel better would mean that I was only cheating myself really stuck with me. Slowly but gradually, I started losing the weight, and have lost almost 30 pounds since I began.
I also began doing CrossFit in February, going about 3-4 times every week. I’ve never felt so strong before - despite the fact that I’m usually the weakest or slowest one in the class, I can feel myself getting more toned and healthier for going. I can see it in my body and I’ve slimmed down significantly.
This is the first time in my life that I haven’t had to worry about if an outfit makes me look fat. All the clothes that I own look amazing and this is the first time I’ve ever had to give away clothes because they were too big. It’s a weird feeling for sure.
I bought new jeans over Black Friday - two in a size 4 and one in a size 2 (different cuts). The jeans I had before were sizes 8s and 10s.
I’m a little hesitant to give up my bigger clothes because I’ve never been this small in my life and I don’t know if I trust that I’ll stay this size. So far, I’ve just been getting smaller but it’s so difficult to convince myself that I’ve truly made a lifestyle change and I won’t just yoyo back to a heavy weight and then would have to just buy more clothes in a larger size.
Does anyone else struggle with this? How do I get over this mental roadblock?
Tl;dr: lost a lot of weight over the last year and went from the largest I’ve been in my life to the smallest I’ve been and feel weird about giving up my “fat” clothes. How can I get over this and convince myself that this body is here to stay?
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