Stats: Im 26 years old, Female, vegetarian, weight 100.3 Kilograms, Height 6”.
I’m so glad I found this site and I really hope you can help me. I have been obese my whole life , so have most people in my family. I took to comfort eating at a very young age and when I started getting bullied I resorted to bulimia.
Long story short, I carried the disorder for several years, refusing to acknowledge I even had one, got called out by a good friend and made a pledge to change my ways.
The first diet and exercise trainer I signed up for was an old friend from uni and she had me on a 900 calorie diet. I don’t why but I just couldn’t keep up, My moods were always off, I hated what I was eating and had no energy to do the workouts she laid our for me. I quit the program mid way and she was so disappointed with me. I have seen her succeed with so many clients, I think I was her first failure. This pushed me back into my ED and that lasted another 3 months.
6 months ago, I signed up for real therapy with a wonderful counsellor and she has changed my relationship with food. I love the effect it has had just on my mental state but sometimes the old demons come to haunt me. Its that even though I have begun eating healthy ( 1200 kcal/ neArly perfect macros according to MyFitnessPal) , I haven’t really lost weight.
I read about all these blog posts , where women who were morbidly obese lose a lot of weight immediately after they start working out. I have been doing these workouts that leave me dead on the ground, drenched in sweat but i have only lost about 4 kilograms (8 pounds) since I started.
My parents tell me they can see the difference. I love them but I don’t really trust them ( they are obviously very worried about my ED) My therapist (rightly) thinks I should just celebrate this wonderful peace of mind I have without worrying about my weight. I do love working out, I do love how much new found energy I have but I also really really want to lose weight and look good.
What I haven’t told my therapist yet, is Im really worried I’m going to resort to my old habits again. Because atleast with an ED you lose weight really really quickly.
Have any of you faced a plateau like this at just the beginning of your journey? Is this normal? I have undergone all kinds of tests, I dont have pre- diabetes, I dont have thyroid issues, I dont have PCOS and I don’t qualify for bariatric surgery.
Please help me!
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