To cut to the chase, I'm a 23F at 5'4" at about 230 lbs. I know. I feel so disgusting. I can't stand seeing my naked body. It makes me want to break down and cry.
I went to the gym for the first time in forever today. And it felt good. But now I'm freaking out that I may never like my body.
What if I lose 50 lbs and all my stomach fat remains (and trust me, it's a lot, I was not blessed to look like a plus sized model, just 9 months pregnant instead)? What about when my boobs, arguably the ONLY attractive thing on my body, disappear and leave deflated skin behind? What about if I look WORSE? Or still "not right?"
I'm feeling so defeated and I just got started. I feel so guilty for destroying my body permanently. I feel like I'm never going to be a beautiful woman because I'll always be fat or have lose skin or have fat in all the wrong places or something. And it's paralyzing me, and making me absolutely miserable.
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