M/20 Ever since i was a teen i struggled with weight but it wasn't until my last year of highschool and a little time after where i lost a large amount of it with the help of a personal trainer and good family friend of mine. I used to weigh 280 and went down to 200 by graduation, then 180 after graduation. At that time i just kinda stayed at that weight and fluctuate between 183-190 and is where i am today basically. Im not obese but I am overweight in a since and always had a self image issue that has stayed with me for a while. During highschool my friends were the type who would partying fucking around with girls. I would party to but was never lucky enough to get a girl of my own, ive had plenty of experiences sleeping at parties thinking how I missed out again and hear friends fucking and im just like "Fuck thisss", half of the time ill just roll up a blunt and go to the back and smoke, jam to some metal. Ive always felt as though in my group of friends i was less attractive because of my weight and i guess because i didn't have too much to offer, i have no car, wasn't able to get a bunch weed at times and wasn't in sports, chose drumline. I felt like i was just didn't fit in like that, i had friends but i wasn't "cool" like that. Ik it sounds kinda cliche but fuck man what else can i say, i was a highschooler. I mean fuck and im not lying about this every girl i ever liked in that school always liked my friends and ended up asking me to help them get with my friends or date them. I would always say yes because why would i not. And in the end it would workout more often than not. I would ways have a sort or resentment twords their relationships but it would go away. Even my best friend had a girl like him that was a crush and she asked me to help her get him. He told me it was some of the best sex he ever had. I remember a time where he, i and a friend took some mdma with some girls i swear on my life when i say i was the only one out of 3 boys and 3 girls to not get a girl. My best friend was making out with one, our other friend was cuddling with another. I talked to the last girl and she said that she had a boy friend and all this. That kinda ruined my trip for that night while it was good in all. But i always think that just if i looked like my friends i'd have better luck with girls, feel better about myself. I've always thought low about my self compared to my friends they have six packs and all, like i have muscle but im just not lean. I have more stock build in me. But just what do i do
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