I need to let it out I'm feeling so down.
I'm short and I weigh 110lbs, for my height though there is still some chub there and I'm working on it. I weigh and track all my food and go to the gym three times a week for 2-3 hrs per session so it's not like I'm not working on it.
It's just so depressing that my dad almost everyday never fails to pinch my stomach and then laugh or shake his head. I've told him before not to do it and it upsets me and he says don't be fat then or lose the weight then, then I say I'm trying I'm already doing that then he says it's cause you keep eating chocolate (I don't?). Doesn't help that my weight hasn't changed this past month (my lifts went up and measurements went down but it's still disheartening to see no visual change). It led me to try an extreme deficit last month (around 700-800 calories a day along with the same gym routine). Which was miserable to say the least and no visual change from a month of that so the other day I decided to eat back at a normal deficit and be patient but then he did it again to day and it's making me want to do something extreme again just so I'd get results so he'd stop doing it, it's so frustrating and depressing.
Leaving home is out of the question and talking back pretty much also is so Idk what to do but lose weight but I can't rush that and till I do I'm justgetting depressed over this. Ps. I also want to lose weight for myself so it's not just cause he's bullying me but the bullying is making me want to take shortcuts just to stop it.
Edit: I weighed 95lbs at one point when I was restricting a lot which looked like a good weight for me (just needed to put on some extra pounds of muscle since I was skinny fat) and during that time he would always buy chips and chocolate and tell me to eat cause I'm skinny then when I do gain weight from all that he'll start saying I'm getting fat again and I'll say it's cause there's chips and chocolate everywhere then he'll be like why are you an animal you can't control yourself don't eat it then.
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