Last summer I had been sticking to CICO for a while and got down to 163-165, I managed to maintain that with off and on counting calories/better choices and consistency in the gym. Now some things drastically changed in my life and in February me and my fiancé signed paperwork to be kinship foster placement for my 80 year old neighbors grandson who has Down syndrome and autism and is non verbal. He has a feeding tube and requires full care. I am also finishing up my BSN online and a caregiver to my mother. Between the end of December and February we were already watching our foster son for a few days/nights a week and I was slowly missing more gym visits and having less of my focus on nutrition/exercise, however, since signing the official paperwork and having him full time (on top of having like 3-4 papers to write a week) I have gained like 10-12 pounds!!!! Which is soooo much in a few months and I’m so ashamed. I know it’s because I haven’t been getting enough sleep, haven’t gone to the gym, and have been constantly snacking with feeling like there’s no time to cook nutritious meals- also stress eating, but I feel like starving hungry all the time!!!! I’m sure it’s because I’m never getting enough protein or nutrition, just constant empty calories…. I get so stuck in a mindset of “starting tomorrow” or Monday which makes me binge today and pretty much h every day….
Now that this is literally my last week of school before I get my degree, and I will have a little more time to focus on my health, I need some encouragement to jump back into it… I’m trying to be kind to myself (per my fiancé and therapists suggestions) because I know that I’ve been so beyond busy and stressed and it doesn’t make me a failure to have taken some steps backwards…now I can just have more time to honor my body…. BUT ITS SO HARD!!! I’m so mad at myself. I was doing so well, and now I feel totally addicted to sugar and processed foods again and I feel huge and sluggish/non motivated
I wouldn’t change the time I’ve gotten with this sweet boy for anything, I just wish I’d been putting my goals somewhere near the top these past couple months.
Ok I’ll stop ranting lol, thanks for coming to my ted talk 🤪🥲
Btw my starting weight was like 190lbs, lowest weight was 163lbs, goal weight was 145-150lbs, and current weight is 177/178lbs
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