As someone who has been diagnosed with binge eating disorder, it’s important to understand a lot about our biology and also the binge/restrict cycle. ONLY you will know your own self and psyche.
Some people are really great at cold turkey. They can just say “OK ENOUGH” and be disciplined and faithful to any specific plan: CICO, keto, WW, whatever.
Then there’s others like myself: I’ve been restricting since I was 8 years old, starting with my mom. Psychologically, we were alway dieting yet having “treats” and being “bad” when we needed to sooth ourselves. Food became the answer to everything and yet still the problem as well.
As I got older the diet/binge cycle continued. I’d be able to diet successfully for 3, 5, 10 even 24 months at a time. Using discipline, self hate and restriction as my pushing factor. But, INEVITABLY I’d get so sick of it that I’d “go back” to full fuck it mode. It was like my inner teenager was revolting against my mom, society, diets, calories…just RAGE against the all mighty wellness machine.
However, I’ve really done a ton of work, books, counselors, dieticians, somatic work, plant medicine…it’s been a long 20 years getting to know this complex mix of biology, psychology, culture and behaviors all mashed into what makes me, me.
What’s helped me now is literally adding in, what my mind considers “fuck it” good to daily life just smaller. I’ll have a small piece of Christmas baclava every night. And count it. I had 3 Christmas cookies yesterday and counted them. I have a coke like once a month. Sometimes it’s too sweet and I drink a few sips and then stop. But NOTHING IS OFF LIMITS. that way, my brain isn’t fixated on “what I can’t have” which leads to binging eventually. I’ll just have the damn Taco Bell and count it. However, then sometimes I’m like, hmm I can make a bomb brunch wrap at home and it’s like 1/2 the Points. Some days I do that, someday is Taco Bell wins.
Am I losing weight at a crazy high and consistent rate like I used to in my 20s when I was fully restricting ? No.
Am I slowly and with full consciousness deciding to make 60 to 80% better choices most of the time ? Yes. Is any food off limits? NO. DO I HAVE THE ACCOUNTABILITY PIECE WHERE I KEEP TRACK OF WHAT I EAT? Yes. Do I sometimes go over? Yes. Do I get back on track the next day? Yep.
It’s taken me 42 years to feel into this balance. I’ve been on WW 10 times plus every. Other. Single. Diet. On. The. Planet. For those out there that “just eat less and move more” is the cross you have to bear in this life, I see you and realize that for some of us, it ain’t that simple.
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