Same old story. Different person. So many red flags. So easy to ignore. I’ll start tomorrow. Yet tomorrow never seems to come. I’ve missed so many opportunities. Wake up calls that only worked for a little while. The day I was told I couldn’t drive a go cart with my daughter. You think that would have been enough. She and I watched as my husband drove our son, and then our daughter around and around while I tried with everything in me not to cry. Knowing I lost that memory because I was too fat. I’ve been yelled at by strangers in a car driving by “Run, Fatty, Run!” in the middle of a 3 mile walk. It wasn’t the first time, nor the last. I’ve watched my weight creep up week after week feeling helpless to stop it. Knowing what I NEED to do, what I’ve done before. Knowing how I can lose weight by tracking calories and working out. I’ve gone from walking to running a 5k in about 2 months. I’ve lost weight over and over but never seem to be able to stick with it. I’ve had medical issues that are caused by being obese....morbidly obese. There have been so many red flags that somehow I’ve pretended to ignore. It’s just easier to put it off another day. I’ll just do it tomorrow. I am 6 pounds away from weighing 300... three HUNDRED pounds. I know how I got here. I know how I can reverse it. Enough is enough. I’m done working so hard only to start over time after time. Today workout one has been completed. I will continue. I don’t want sympathy. I just no longer want to be revulsed by what I see in the mirror. This is going to be a long, difficult journey. Some days I’ll win, others I won’t. As long as I win in the end. I’ve got this! So here it goes!
Day One. 5’4” SW 293.8 GW 145
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