24/F/220/5’8”
I’m feeling pretty stuck mentally. It’s a number of problems.
I dropped to 202 last summer from 223. Steadily over a half year. Not through anything special, just extra summer exercise and activity (I’m a nanny so summer days are spent all being active) I even went on a solo hiking traveling trip to Utah, and Colorado. I never dropped into the 100’s but I was really feeling great.
And then last August got the call from my grandfather that my mother passed unexpectedly l. Don’t need to go into details but obviously some things went out of control. I Hopped back up to 225 but nothing more. So fortunately I at least stayed in a normal range.
Obviously dealing with depression. Not in a place to afford a therapist unfortunately.
The most positive (problem) is probably that I’m just really comfortable in my skin and my level of activity (regularly play volleyball, do gymnastics periodically - I mostly just enjoy flipping around on the trampolines, and hike every so often)
I could do all of those a lot more and regularly which im sure would help but I have a lot of financial and time constraints in the way.
I know I’m “obese”. When I see photos of myself I don’t even want to look at them, It makes me feel so bad and ugly. But when I look in the mirror I feel pretty. Even though my work out pants roll when I work out - I see my big thighs and feel powerful and strong. Even though my tummy rolls too when I sit I’m still very comfortable.
Not sure if I need a “roast” so I feel like I need to make change or what. I know I need to for my health but I’m just wondering if anyone has advice on how to stay motivated or make bigger strides.
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