I just realized that I ruined myself and I want to change

Hi everyone!

This is going to be another "day 1" post, but I need to write it down as a sort of promise to myself.

I know I am overweight, now, but the horrible thing is that I've put so much weight on in 5 years and I never really noticed it.

When I was in high school I weighted around 62/65kg (I'm 166cm) and compared to all my friends I was the heavier one. I didn't like myself, classic high school stuff and so on.

Went to university, found a nice environment and as I "grew up" I started feeling better with myself, in general. I've accomplished a lot from a "relationship" point of view and I'm happy about that.

However, I knew I was gaining weight, and I hated hearing family members commenting on every single thing I ate, even if it was something healthy. Out for dinner? As soon as I opened the menu they were "don't ever think about eating pasta!" even if I had no intention of doing it. This constant commenting made me start going to the gym, but at the same time I didn't stick to an healthier diet, so there was no progress.

All this rant and pointless stuff because two days ago, after one year abroad, I weighted myself and I discovered that I'm currently around 85 kg. I've never been this fat, I was actually being more active and all, and it felt soul-crushing. I stumbled upon some high school pictures and looking at that girl who looked so much better than me now just makes me cry.

I am incredibly sorry for this rant, is super long and not really coherent, but again I need to write something down. This time I need to improve myself for real.

In any case, TL;DR: I like food too much, now am fat. Gotta change.

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